going out of my mind
Height: 5'5 HW: 137 LW: 104 CW: 126 GW1: 120 GW2: 115 GW3: 110 GW4: 105 UGW: 100
67090) Whenever my friends even bring up wanting to loose weight, all I do Is try and persuade them to eat more and that they don’t need to loose anything. The truth is I can’t let them become skinnier than me, I just can’t.

poeticinsanity:

Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of Zumba (you can follow and YouTube video you like!) who’s in?

200/1000 done…

Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of Zumba (you can follow and YouTube video you like!) who’s in?

66721) I don’t know how much is normal anymore. I can no longer tell how much or little I consume. All I know is that it is too much and I am becoming no smaller. I need help.
66720) If you could look at me, without knowing me, you’d never think that I have an eating disorder. And I actually hate that, I fucking hate that.
66718) My friend wants me to get better, and eat better, and I’ve been trying but I feel too ashamed to tell her if I do eat because I feel like a dissapointment.
66687) When I noticed that she stopped eating completely, I tried to get her to eat. I bought food for her, I basically forced it down her troat. I told her she needed to eat and that she could get sick if she kept on doing what she did. I’m worried about her. But most of all, I don’t want her to have my eating disorder. This is mine. And I’m scared that if she gets and eating disorder that she’ll do it “better” than me. What have I become?
66689) I want my friends to recover because I am actually worried about them… I know the horrible effects an eating disorder has because I have suffered them. Yet a sick part of me wants them to recover so that I can be the thin one for a change.
66682) Food and the hatred for my body are on my mind all day, every day. Every minute. With everything I do. I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m not underweight though and I manage to eat more than enough every day. Which makes it even worse. Because hardly anyone believes I have a problem.
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