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Fri, 24 May 2013 22:07:20 -0400

67090) Whenever my friends even bring up wanting to loose weight, all I do Is try and persuade them to eat more and that they don't need to loose anything. The truth is I can't let them become skinnier than me, I just can't.

Thu, 09 May 2013 15:33:03 -0400

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Tue, 07 May 2013 19:11:39 -0400

poeticinsanity: Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of...

Wed, 01 May 2013 22:41:25 -0400

poeticinsanity:

Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of Zumba (you can follow and YouTube video you like!) who’s in?

200/1000 done…

Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of Zumba (you can...

Wed, 01 May 2013 22:33:18 -0400

Who wants to join me for a workout??? I’m doing 1000 crunches and 20 minutes of Zumba (you can follow and YouTube video you like!) who’s in?

66721) I don't know how much is normal anymore. I can no longer tell how much or little I consume. All I know is that it is too much and I am becoming no smaller. I need help.

Wed, 01 May 2013 19:59:55 -0400

66720) If you could look at me, without knowing me, you'd never think that I have an eating disorder. And I actually hate that, I fucking hate that.

Wed, 01 May 2013 19:54:56 -0400

66718) My friend wants me to get better, and eat better, and I've been trying but I feel too ashamed to tell her if I do eat because I feel like a dissapointment.

Wed, 01 May 2013 19:44:59 -0400

66687) When I noticed that she stopped eating completely, I tried to get her to eat. I bought food for her, I basically forced it down her troat. I told her she needed to eat and that she could get sick if she kept on doing what she did. I'm worried about her. But most of all, I don't want her to have my eating disorder. This is mine. And I'm scared that if she gets and eating disorder that she'll do it "better" than me. What have I become?

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 21:50:59 -0400

66689) I want my friends to recover because I am actually worried about them... I know the horrible effects an eating disorder has because I have suffered them. Yet a sick part of me wants them to recover so that I can be the thin one for a change.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 21:50:41 -0400

66682) Food and the hatred for my body are on my mind all day, every day. Every minute. With everything I do. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm not underweight though and I manage to eat more than enough every day. Which makes it even worse. Because hardly anyone believes I have a problem.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 20:51:31 -0400

66678) I get annoyed at people for telling me what to do yet I ask for advice. I want to feel loved yet I push people away. I want to be free yet I want to be sick.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 20:35:43 -0400

66668) I'm always afraid people around me have this... thing too. I look through ana and mia tags, just looking at the pictures, wondering if I'll recognize someone. I look through their blogs, searching for suspicious pictures or posts. I'm obsessed. I read every tweet and post an old friend makes, just to check that she doesn't relapse. I'm obsessed, but I need to be the best, the only. The thinnest.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 19:47:34 -0400

How many pills do I have to take before I’ll be pretty?

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 19:15:24 -0400

How many pills do I have to take before I’ll be pretty?

Can’t I just die already?

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:11:12 -0400

Can’t I just die already?

66595) My best friend confessed to me that she has an ED, but she doesn't know what it's really like. Sure, she cuts herself and weighs herself, and sometimes doesn't eat, but all her ideas about anorexia are from other people. I don't even consider her as competition.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 15:42:01 -0400

I saw your lax post and I was wondering if you had to be a certain age? I thought you did but idk you might be older than me

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 15:40:32 -0400

No, I don’t think you do. For diet pills yes, but I think lax is ok. Saying that, please please if you haven’t tried it DON’T START! You dont lose anything but water weight with lax, and all that does is make you dehydrated. Not to mention that after a time, you become addicted and it actually comes impossible to go without them xx

66549) I feel the need to make other girls feel confident about there weight, but only to make me feel so much smaller than them. I lead them on to make them think eating is whats best. I do this all for my dirty pleasure. I preach things that I can't even do.

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 21:54:31 -0400

Trying to buy/swipe laxatives when you live with your family is like being on an episode of...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 21:20:08 -0400

Trying to buy/swipe laxatives when you live with your family is like being on an episode of survivor.

katara: a small family could live off of my thighs for like 10 weeks

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 21:19:21 -0400

katara:

a small family could live off of my thighs for like 10 weeks